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Goals and Resolutions oh my!

  • Posted on January 2, 2012 at 11:31 pm
This entry is part 1 of 6 in the series Goals and Resolutions 2012

If I set goals and made resolutions for 2011, I certainly didn’t blog about them. SO! New year, new stuff.

Resolution: Get healthy
My diet is slowly improving, and (y’all can tell) I’m cooking more. But I need to do more. Therefore:

Goal: exercise more. There for the longest time I made the excuse that I’m getting enough exercise at work. Yes, I’m moving a lot at work, but it’s not enough. I have an exercise bike, hand weights, and children to chase.

Goal: Be more in control of my diet.1

I’m sure it doesn’t help that I work in a grocery store. Positive, actually. But I bring a lunch to work and then decide I don’t want it. Or skip packing a lunch at all and end up buying a bag of chips, a candy bar, a soda, and fried chicken. Or a corndog. Or chicken salad.

Time to change that.

Resolution: Budget.

There’s no way I could’ve planned for all the financial chaos that ensued in 2011. And to be completely honest, I don’t know that I could’ve saved enough money to handle everything. Therefore:

Goal: Develop a side business. I’m not making enough money. That needs to change.

Goal: Track spending. I need to know where what little bit of money I’ve got is going. It’s not enough to check the bank account to see if I’ve got it before I spend.

I think that’s enough for now, don’t you? We’ll have a periodic check-in on what’s happening.

  1. This is a dual goal, dealing with both budget and diet []

About that boy of mine…

  • Posted on November 4, 2011 at 8:00 am

I have not wanted to talk about the boys and their Issues and Diagnoses out of respect for their current and future privacy.

But I neeeeeeed to talk.

Mommyguilt. I haz it.

And let me preface this whole post by saying: I understand that we make the best decisions we can at the time we make them. While this is very much a hindsight-related post, I accept what I did and we’re moving on.

Mkay?

I’ve always known that Daniel was autistic. He’s always been highly functional, in his Daniel way.

And I was OK with that. I *am* OK with that.

But.

We didn’t do any psychological testing or IQ testing when he was younger. I didn’t want labels slapped on him, I didn’t want him thinking that he could use his Issue as an excuse. I did want him to be educated and well-spoken, to be kind to others, and to be happy. So far, we’ve got all those things.

But now, we’re at a place where… had I set up all those things with him as a child, we wouldn’t be in the situation we’re in now. (Maybe) The public school system really has no idea what to do with him. Or rather – our school has no idea what to do with him. When we signed on for public school, I was told that our school is THE school for autistic children in the district. After four years there, I can honestly say:

It is not the school for GIFTED autistic children, for highly functional autistic children.

He sits in the classroom at his desk, resigned and bored. He participates and verbally answers questions but writing makes his hand hurt (death grip on the pencil). And now we’re getting to the age where grades “matter” and his teacher has nothing to grade. His third grade teacher was STUNNED with his EOG scores last year (she wasn’t expecting him to make 4s). And I’m scrambling to help him get to where he needs to be.

I want to homeschool again. Put him in a private school. Something ANYTHING that’s not going to ruin him for liiiiiife.

I fired WalMart today

  • Posted on April 27, 2010 at 2:49 pm

The mission was a simple one: flash drive & daughter’s prescription. The store has recently been remodeled, so I expected to have to search.

While I was there, the daughter texted & asked me to get her a flash drive as well. No problem, right?

I wandered the aisles, up and down. Looking at the new items, and wondering where the computer accessories are. (Answer: strewn everywhere thanks to retail psychology – the more stuff you look at the more you’ll buy). Finally I walked up to the counter and said “Excuse me.”

She continued working.

“Hi?”

“OH! I’m so sorry! How can I help you?”

“Where are the flash drives?”

“They’re over by the printer ink.”

“Okay, thank you.”

So I walked over to the area where the printer ink was and walked up and down. You would THINK that an employee of a secure department would follow behind with the key, wouldn’t you?

You would be wrong.

Instead, I stood there, leaning against a display….waiting. Watching. I’m not sure how long I stood there…five minutes maybe? when another associate walked by and asked if I needed help.

Angels descended from above

I told him what I needed, and he went RIGHT to the employee that had been ignoring me and asked for the key. I thanked him for his help and made my way to the pharmacy to pick up the prescription and pay for my drives.

The pharmacy employee cheerfully rang up the prescription, handed it to me, and told me to have a nice day.

WHILE I was trying to hand her the flash drives to ring up.

I bit my lip, nodded my head, and made my way to the cash registers out front.

The speedy checkout line had no customers, but it *did* have two associates talking to a customer. I slid the drives to the cashier and waited while the chatterbox made her way AWAY from the card slider. The cashier asked me how I was doing (Don’t ask. Thank you for asking, though.) and completed the transaction. I made my way to the doorway

walked through

and set off the alarm.

Then I went home and fired off an email to their customer service department where I closed the letter with:

You’re fired. Seriously. I can get everything that’s available in your store from other retail outlets.

And now I’m telling y’all!

The End

  • Posted on May 5, 2009 at 1:21 pm
This entry is part 9 of 10 in the series atypicalrelationship

Ed. note: My part is bolded

Good Morning
Morning
Sleep well?
Somewhat
What are you doing today?
Going to the dentist at 1115 thats about it
Sounds fun
Another adjustment
Adjustments for everyone!
U need a stretch adjustment since its been a while
… seriously?
You don’t answer the phone when I call, but I’m supposed to giggle, roll over and put out when you snap your waistband?
Yanno, I may be different than any other girl, but it still hurts to be ignored.

Im here i had the phone turned down while i was in the dentist officd
And babe u aint put out in a while
So you just want sex. Got it. Wish you’d been that upfront to start.
You never would have met my kids.

Cat ot your tounge
U emily u have serious problem
Do tell. Or rather, do text since you don’t want to TALK.
You’re right. I do have a serious problem. I believed you.

U caused this wedge between us and it was all you when it came to your kids and i didnt push u into being my daughter’s parent figure i figured it would come in time but i didnt push it
You’re right., It’s all me.
Well quit it and slow things down and enjoy being with each other
So I should just put out, right?
U should want to spend time with me without fussing all the time with
You should want to TALK to me. Not text all the time.
The reason is we get into fusses and i don’t want to fight with u but if that can change it will be better Close
U have to work tonight
What does it matter?
I wanted to know if u wanted to go out spend some tiime together
I can’t tonight. I know you don’t care to hear about my kids, but it’s Joe’s turn to be sick.
Is that u cant or u wont
I am not leaving my son.
Fine use him as an excuse u didnt want to go anyway
Why would I go out with someone who refuses to talk to me?
We can talk but not fight
I don’t think you couold insult me any further.
Maybe if u didnt try and pick arguements with me
You’re right,. I’mcompletely and totally to blame.
If u remember u made a comment that i shouldnt be around ur kids cause u thought i was a dangerb to them so im not going around them and u started all this shit to start with
Because uve always spoke before u thought
Things were good between us until u had show ur ass in front of ur mother chose a house over me which told me right there u didnt care anything about me
You said you didn’t want to talk about the house. I did not show my ass, I pointed out that a week was not realistic AND that you didn’t give us the statement we asked for.
Like u said i was a good fuck or lay
And bonus! Your still married to someone else.
You SAID it wasn’t just sex. You SAID you wanted to get married. You SAID to stop shoving my kids down your throat.
I would like to point out that you don’t know if I’m fussin’ or not. There is no tone of voice.

Look whats between me and u is our relationship whats between me and ur mother is between me and her the sooner u realize that our relationship will quit suffering
So you’re sleepin with my mama too?
Dont be smart
But I thought you liked that I’m an intellectual?
Dont be funny
But I don’t want to be gloomy all the time!
Emily do you miss me at all
I did. For a while. Realizing that you weren’t really interested in speaking to me pretty much killed it.
It hurt. A lot. That happens when you take chances.

Well i dont want to aurgue with u alol the time i thought i made that clear when i saw in the store
I get that. But you didn’t bother to communicate other than to text. Even after I asked you to PLEASE talk to me not text.
Emily ur looking for a father for ur kids more than ur looking for a relationship u might know how to please a man physicaly but not emotionaly
…Yeaaaaah you’re fantastic at that whole emotional thing there dude.
Its hard when someone pushed u away
You TOLD me you were looking for a good relationship not just sex.
I was looking for both
I can’t be with someone that refuse to be part of our lives. Maybe you wouldn’t have gotten my children shoved at you if you hadn’t spoken of marriage.
U dont beleive in it anyway
So I’m supposed to abandon my kids and my mama? I don’t think so.
Why did u think u had to do that
You said “marry me.” I said “here are my children. This is my Mama.” Now you say I shoved them down your throat.
Because I cannot dump my children or my mama. Will not. We are a package deal. Buy one get four free.
Well i know whats wrong with u ur under ur mothers thumb cause u want her money and if u dont do what she wants she will cut you out of her will and not give u that trailer uiknow i love my parents but im not going to plant my head up their but to please them i dont care what they had and your mother woukdnt have anything unless it been for your dad cause he got it all.
Now who’s pushing away?
U know u kept telling me that ur mother was off her rocker well guess what ur just like her and getting more like her every day
No, just proving your ignorance.
Nope just telling the truth
Now u have gone where noone has gone before flippy
I maybe alot of things but im not stupid
I said you were ignorant. Which is not the same thing as stupid.
U no what im tired of this u have proved again all u want to do is argue i think thqats enough
I’m just trying to communicate with you. You refuse to talk to me and with a sick kid I don’t have many other options.
U dont know how to commuicate
You don’t know how to listen. I think that pretty well evens us out.
You keep right on thinking that babe.
Just like a women always tryhing to tell you how it is when she has no clue.
Mmhmm
I dont think I know
Yea i can rock your world