I didn’t write anything in 2003.
I didn’t write anything in 2004.
In 2005, I was hugely conflicted on the subject of filing for child support. The reasons for the conflict remain the same, but the anxiety turned out to be pointless. I wrote:
I want baby daddy to pay child support.
I don’t want baby daddy to pay child support.
I want him to KNOW the child is his (apparently, I’m a slut. Who knew?)
I don’t want to subject my child to the necessary blood draw for DNA analysis.
I want him to spend time with his child.
I don’t want him to spend time with his child.
I want the communication lines to open up, so we can get this mess straightened out.
I don’t want to talk to him.
I want to apologize for the wrongs I did.
I don’t want to apologize – I did nothing wrong. (did I?)
The anxiety was pointless because I didn’t take the glacial pace at which government agencies move into consideration. When I wrote it, I was thinking “They’ll haul him in, we’ll have our lil mouth swab, he’ll pick a fight just because he can, and It Will Suck Mightily.” Obviously, I had no clue as to the time component.
The reality is, I filled out the paperwork one year ago and have heard nothing from Official Sources. Because they are out of state, I’m not just dealing with one government, I’m dealing with three (NC and their respective states). And? Since I didn’t necessarily WANT to file in the first place, I’m making the choice to leave it as is. The respective gentlemen are aware that paperwork has been filed, if they choose to “step up” and cooperate, bully for them. I will continue to cooperate with Child Support Enforcement, but it will be from a “respond to their requests” point of view.
As for the rest of the angst, well… The money from child support would be nice. Since I’ve never had it to begin with, I don’t miss it or count on it to ever show up. Ditto that for time spent and good communication with us. I’m realistic enough to realize that it will probably never happen (since it hasn’t happened yet).
The only “wrong” I did was more of a “stupid” – not using redundant birth control.