Losing a whole me.

Yes, you heard that right. I’m DELIBERATELY trying to lose myself. Well, hrm (carry the one, divide by ‘x’) maybe not entirely a whole me. But you get the general idea. While I will be taking weights and measurements, you can bet your ass you won’t be reading them here. A girl’s gotta have SOME secrets . I will post periodic photographic evidence, but I’m not going so far as to create a category and make a regular entry.

While I’m not unhappy with the way I look (I’m lucky – I have a waist no matter how much weight I gain), I know I can look a LOT better. And I also realize there are some things that weight loss *won’t* change. I never have, nor will I EVER have a six-pack. I will always* have this saggy pooch at the bottom of my abdomen – it’s stretched out skin from the pregnancies. I will always* have these huge gnarly milk-bag breasts. Those things really don’t bother me.

*unless I have a surgical intervention

So what does bother me? My knees. I can’t go up a flight of stairs without the sounds of popping and crackling. And I’m starting to have problems with my blood pressure. And finally, if I do happen to have a fourth child, losing weight would make that pregnancy a lot easier.

There’s a local park with a walking track, and I’m going to try it first. The kids will be able to play while I’m walking with Joe in the backpack. Hopefully my knees will hold up. If they don’t, my next course of action will be the municipal pool. I’ll just have to figure out a way to keep both boys occupied while I swim. Obviously, I’m praying my knees can hold up. I’d rather swim, but can’t afford child care during, and I’d really rather not ask Mom to. I’m sure she would, but she works a full shift during the day, and is usually too tired to babysit for more than 30 minutes (or so) while I run to the store for something.

I’ve wrapped up most of the things I was working on. The magazine is at a standstill due to a writer’s block on my part, and the other things I’m working on can be delayed a bit.

And awayyyyyyy I go!