Blah. Absolute blah. I’m so tired.
Is it truly possible to want to take a vacation from your children and yet want more children at the same time? I feel like a psycho typing that, but it’s true. I occasionally feel a girl’s spirit around me, and with my daughter asking for a baby sister…..who knows.
But I want to take a vacation from the 3 I have now. I love them to pieces, honestly, I do. I need a break, a chance to regroup, an opportunity to sit and be calm and actually *think*. 90% of the things I do these days are reactionary – I don’t really get an opportunity to truly think things through. What would I think about? Well, lessee….
Do I really want to try for another relationship or just call it quits?
Will my children *really* be OK with just me as their parent?
What, exactly, do I want to do with my life?